Since the last 2-2,5 years I live in a constant boredom. Lying on my bed or sitting on my couch, browsing Reddit, Hacker News or Facebook mindlessly without any meaningful result. This phenomenon is not unfamiliar for me as I felt somehow the same in my childhood, playing videogames, watching TV or reading fiction books because nothing was interesting enough. Unfortunately this advanced to a situation when nothing excites me, drinking alcohol or eating shitty foods for amusement is the only constant points in my life.

I try to reject the hedonic treadmill, not spending money on unnecessary things & gadgets but the idea of the iPad with Apple Pencil and Apple Watch gives me some unrealistic expectation of “that will solve my problems at least a bit.”

I really do not know is it related to my suspected AD(H)D or I just simply lazy, but it literally kills me in the long-term.